SIGH . THIS IS AN EMO POST . OK . SIGH . got up early in the morning . saw 4 sms from my gan laogong . sighs . read le i cry sia . omg . fuck la okays . i cant say anything much i cant say that he never think of my feelings cause i din think of his sighs . it has been so long since i felt like this . hahhs ! whys does things always happen for half a year and never continues ? sighs . omg . u noe , joanna ever told me .. be gans ok don too tou ru . bud i guess we did den end up sry . i'm crying early in the morning . i noe it will spoil my day sighs . i woke up early bud still i'm in no mood to go to sch . sighs . maybe i go ? bud i'll just emo ? fuck la . how i wish i never woke up to read the sms sigh T_T .
to my ex-gan laogong : sry that i din think abt ur feelings , i wont be like that if i din xi huan shang ni also okayys . u noe in my situation now , for me to xi huan yi ge ren very hard ma . sighs . thanks for everything that you've done . sry that i cant be your stead due to my own selfishness . you don wanna be my gan den it's okays . bud can u at least still remain as my fren ? sighs . i should have known earlier . sigh . i'm sry . i din noe that i make you until so zzzzzzzz . i realli am sry . but the times talking to you always , very enjoyable and memorable . realli thanks for always being there for me . and sry for neglecting you the past few days . sighs there's so much more that i wanna say bud i guess it's of no use ? if you realli wanna go den i cant stop you . i don have the right either . but i noe i'll miss you . i'm sry . i've still saved ur smses . i'm to us ied to having you ard me already . it's not onli you who have to get over this but me too . sighs . sry for everything tat i have done . sighs . if onli i had .. bud it's too late . aiya nvm T_T~ . meow .
wanna be single for long bud sighs . at first i dunno if i can do it . but now i think i can . i'm sry for everything . i feel so zzz T_T serious . i'm not a good person to like okays ! so don like me . i don wanna have a stead is because of my past experiences . it was damn fucking sad okays till i fall into depression . i'm serious . my close frens shld have known best who are joanna and katherine . they seen everything that happened to me . a very bad rs . till i am so afraid of liking anyone . realli realli afraid okays . sighs . i dunno la . i dunno wanna experience this heart wrenching situations anymore . i'm afraid i cant take it le . i always say guys are bad . not all la . maybe me myself is the bad one ? i'm not a good person alrights . sighs . not a good person to love . sighs . i wanna continue crying .
i cant kip the one i love by my side . as always sighs . i shldnt be loved at all .
god save me from this fucked up life of mine .
who wanna go out to drink . call me okay . i will wait .
sometimes i am glad that i am 18 already =.=
6/20/2009 07:56:00 AM my heartful song Y
