Saturday, November 24, 2007
omfg.. sighs .. ii not cause of dagege wanna break contact with jo okayys . sighs .. pot noes how ii feel sighs .. u noe ..i t's like sighs .. ii cant find the right person to say .. ii so much wanna be frens with them agn . but sighs .. ii just don wanna rmb the hurtful parts ok . me and dage now is just onisan and imoto . ok . so don think so much la hors.. ii also nv say because of that . wtf . sighs . u noe .. it's like jo ..although ii realli realli everytime wanna noe wad's happening between the two of u bud sighs .. if ur're sad about him u can tell mii. bud wait till ii really forget everything can ? i'm sry bud it hurts la . although ii can control i can don care .. bud it just hurts there ..ii like a bud ii find b to make a happy . den ii forgot about c and d who cares and liked b . den is like i regret . den b come tell mii she don wanna care bout anything except for a . i can understand at that point of time . bud at that time . i'm still helping as much as ii can for b and kokoro hontou ni itai okayys . sighs . ii din say anything . ii wish ii can continue to contact a and b bud too much have happened .. my heart cant take it la . sighs although ii wanna pretend nth has ever happened bud why do ii feel tat it's like history repeating over agn . nvm la . nobody will understand . sighs . nobody cares . ii don have the mood to think or do anything . sighs .. been listening to the song . making me emo sias . fuck . when ur gone . nvm nvm nvm . ii wanna go ktv.. bud it brings back memories.. ii going to drink sighs ... sooo gonna bud ii cant get drunk ii cant be . sighs . why . how ii wish ii can be .. no worries blah .. when ii cut ii bleed alot ... ii felt happy . i'm going insane . sighs .. i dunno wad's with me ok . drifting away from everyone . sighs .. maybe when jo and ii nv contact le if ii hear she's still happy it's good i'll be happy for her .. ii don care about wad will happen to me ok. ii hate my fucked up life anyways. how ii wish really ii can fly go japan study . bud i'll miss everyone here sighs .... maybe ii shld ? in a few yrs time ..i've plan .
message to jo : i'm sry about everything . i'm sorry for messing up . i'm sry that it had to end this way . sry for not telling u the reason . i'm sorry for always giving u so much problems . i'm really sorry and goodbye . takkaiirreess loads . i'll miss u . take care of dage for me ok . thanks loads. ur're a nice fren tat ii have known for this ten yrs =))
fuck la . sighs .. ii cant stand it .. my heaert pain until ii cannot tahan .. ii noe it sounds fake bud nobody can expect how much pain and how much it has to keep . ii don feel like saying and ii cant say out anything . sighs just leave me alone .
11/24/2007 11:16:00 PM my heartful song Y
Friday, November 23, 2007
i'm sad.. jo.. ii dunno why ...ii first time liddat sighs.. shi sad de.. hmmms ... ii say don wan contact them both bud sighs ii deep down wan .. bud wad she wanna do den do bahhs .. sighs.. everyday ii shall just think and think .. use work to keep mii occupied... so tired and hungry don wanna take a break . if not i'll think sighs... why will it become liddat because of myself agn.. sighs... don wanna care .. hmmms .. da ge , jo u two take care kaes.. wad ever happens indirectly not my problem . sighs . i dunno if ii wanna care or not .. argh . baka . kokoro hontou ni itai ! onisan . suki desu . no more.. sighs .. cant . must stop sighs . someone help mi . kokoro itai . breaking . silently doing wadever i wan . i wont contact them anymore ... i wonder will dey forget mi . sighs ..if dey do den it's alright .. as long as they are happy . why am i like that .i dunno myself . ii shall zi bi zhen from them sighs... T.T ii cut . for the first time jo din realise . it's for her . and it's fading. i'll continue . bud not much cause of work . retail . hand can see .. ii shall go prepare bandages bahhs .. cuts onli . cant be compared to the pain in my heart . letting go of jo and dage . sighs nvm . ii cant do anything to . just to forget everything .. ii shall just try real hard that nth happened b4 . i had 2 frens jo and da ge ... bud now... ii dunno... ii wanna say break contact bud ii don wan jo to think i'm stopping her from contacting da ge ok. hmms ii said my farewell to da ge . bud looks like he din get my hint sighs . realli wanna drink . i'm so fucking stressed up by everything .. until ii don even wanna do anything about it .. jo if u really can don care everything just onli da ge .. den don care bout mi . just leave mi alone.. i'm sry bud ya . sighs...care bout urself ok . while this period . if u can continue happily , i'll walk out of ur life .. my 10 yr fren . ii super don bear to really bud sighs . like ii say ii dunno wad ii thinking . ii really need a break bud ii dunno how ...
hmms.. ii dunno lors.. ii start loving dolls ~~ they rock my life and and !! ii start to like the lolita gothic jappy fashion styles lols .. must be go sgcafe everytime kanna influence sias.. hmms.. my lesbians are loved tshirt cant be made T.T ii shall go make myself one HAHAHAS hmms . sad la..work is fun not bad . hmmms .. met alot new ppl blah . town became my second home . ohs ..talking bout dolls . rozen maiden rocks big time . lols .. hontou ni suki desu . hehhs ... hmms.. kaes la .. ii tmr working full shift .. got to slp le..
ps:this song introduced to mii by jo.. sighs... from today . everything shall stop .. the gmaine u see may be fake .. when's she'll be real or fake ii don really noe it myself . ii may be a changed person ? who noes.. let's just wait and see.. sayonara watashi hontou ni sukidesu tomodachi . .. sayonara onisan . sayonara....
11/23/2007 11:31:00 PM my heartful song Y
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
hellos ~! da gege hahahs .. ii got a new da ge ~! whees ... work is okook not bad onli about hair thingy la .. hehhs ii shall devote myself to aoi ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ hahahs . and kannon ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ lols
11/21/2007 12:08:00 AM my heartful song Y
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
ANYWAYS .. JO QUARRELED WITH ME ANYONE NOE???~~~~~!!!
11/06/2007 11:43:00 PM my heartful song Y
ii cant help it .. wahahahahahas . honto ni kawaii desu~!!!!!!!!!! cant forget hahahahahs . anyways .. ii also got lj le .. bud update very little de xD wahhs ... mina san baka desu ~! hehhs .. ii high le la ~~~~~~~~~~~~
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hehhs... T SHIRT ROCKS . CANT WAIT FOR IT TO COME . whees ... my cosplay costumes are on its way ~! so excited canx!! hehhs . strawberry panic ... <33 hehhs .. xD .
11/06/2007 11:27:00 PM my heartful song Y
KONBANWA . omg la ~~~~~~ today finally off .. tmr surprisingly they ask mii off again lei ~! lols la . hmmms . ii boought 2 clothes , 4 pairs of shoes =x hehhs .. i'm mad right ? cheryl asked mii order the lesbians are loved t shirt omfg so cool la .. ii wan~~~~ ordered~! anyone wan ??? hehhs .. ii saw a butch at chippy omg . she soooooo cute la . lols .. at raffles place . was queing for doughnuts today mahhs .. hahahahas omg la .. ii mad le ~ whees loves jap loads loads loads .. love my kuromi collection~ love my anna sui collection ~! WAHAHAHAHAS . hmmms bored .. oyasumi . mata ashita . SAYONARA
11/06/2007 11:18:00 PM my heartful song Y
Monday, November 5, 2007
hmm.. hellos.. work's alright.. kinda fun whees . hehhs . omg . tmr finally break ~ no more standing T.T leg pain de lei lols ..ii wanna upload alot of pictures bud lazy ya . hmms .. anyways .. ii ordered a t shirt from online so cool la.. sugoi~! thanks to cheryl lols ... it says lesbians are loved . ii so agree can lols . omg la~ okok la ... hmms .. ii have a dream .. a dream i'll nv forget ii like alot .. hmms ... shall work hard towards tat dream? although noe is impossible .. sighs .. =)) oyasumi
11/05/2007 09:59:00 PM my heartful song Y
