Thursday, July 31, 2008
ehs. shit . ii still don have the enthu to write out wad happened in thailand leis.. BUD GOT CAR ACCIDENT =.= heng nth happen . knock my head so pain lors.. go do thai massage .. shiokkkkkkkk . bud the process is torturers haha . so kuku la... sianed . gtg . update tmr.. sighs . mood not as good also haha. anyways .. ytd drink with jo... den until very tired.. slp under my hse blk .. until 1am. =x .. den siao eh called me . lols.. den liddat lors.. den chat with her till 3 . omg so tired... today sch was like =.= ....
7/31/2008 08:02:00 PM my heartful song Y
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
hmmmmmmmms. ii guess .. tmr den ii write out abt my trip okayys . SIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHS. as usual fuck . thinking like this . losing hope already . pls tell me i'm pmsing .. pls pls pls . so all this weird mixed up feelings in me can just go aways .. sighs . ii wanna drink.. maybe jo coming . hope she does...
7/30/2008 09:07:00 PM my heartful song Y
Sunday, July 27, 2008
anyways , it was fun with sarah ang yu ting and jo celebrating ang's bdae . it's been so long since it was the 4 of us lerhhs . realli missed the times xDD went to watch prom night . nice sias . the girl damn chio . the killer big time hjj sias . ( hentai jiji ) xDD pervertic old man . super obession over the girl xDD hohoho . so exciting that time la . bud always cause of the damn sound effects =.= wth la hors.. lols. hmmms. always will noe that something gonna happen liddat lols ~! bud anyways it's fun~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ii enjoyed it lots. love euu all ~! my dearest~~~!!!!!!
ii wan watch P2 ~!!! also smth like prom night ~ who wan watch with me~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!
oh oh oh ~! maybe ii wanna go the firework festival !!! hehhs . ohs. ppl ask me go matsuri ~ in aug . ii asked samuel if he going yes he is~ lols . help there de . dunno shld ii go there in lolita or causal xDD haha . cause mitsuki say wan to go with me ma xDD hehhs . so cool . bought stuffs from sgcafe ppl . they are very friendly ppl xDD hehhs nice nice . loves . buying a glp princess lolita from aeth-chan xDD collecting when i'm back . and my top from damishii xDD hehhs . whees . loves . wonder when will my stuffs from haru be back . xDD this is my life now and i'm currently enjoying it ii suppose xDD
anyways , mama gonna change 300sgd to thai baht for me xDD hohoho . shopping~! onli if ii could use in sg instead T.T ii just ordered stuff from taobao 11 items worth of my glp stuff =x omg rights lols ~! den from miwitch my lolitas~~~ hehhs . kill me manx . if i'm ur daughter ii think u'll just die . cant afford . i think so myself too . for my doll ~~ 2 more yrs and i'm still waiting . ii will love my doll loads loads wholeheartedly .like ii said , loving a doll is so much better =)) they'll never leave you .. sounds very ... rights xDD hoho . just accept it luhhs xDD this is MEEEE ~! hmms . talked to jo bout alot of things ?? lols . was telling her how ii wish ii could have half of her ..so hyper so active DARING to do things xDD u noe , onli yj and cher and jo ii think saw the most embarrassing side of me ..as in ii can be a clown serious ~ ohs and my collegues xD surprisingly .. all the funny actions , funny faces . like some retard . how ii wish ii can be like that too xDD don care bout other ppl say . bud sometimes quite hard yahhs xDD that is my would be self~! in front of my tomodachi desu~~!! hehhs xDD loves~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ .
i'm suppose to be going away for a holiday . bud bud why do i feel weird . why do i still have this weird feeling in me ? sighs . the uneasiness . how T.T sighs . cheryl and jo . u both will noe what i talking abt rights xDD always kp to euu all derhhs . thanks for everything ya . esp wad happened last half year yahhs . sighs . omg la . u noe u noe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh ~! taskete~! is it liddat spell ? lols . ii love jo's blog song~~ love love xDD hehhs xDDD send me the lyrics~!!!!! roars . damn nice and sad sias . xD hehhs . so long nv emo le . want to noe how it feels.. i noe i can be emo if i wan too . bud very jialet la . and very kns derhhs me xDD hohoho. anyways . dunno .. 3 days .. thailand . anyways .. ii still love my sac frens xD can never be replaced manx ! loves loves~~~ hehhs ..
hope ii can enjoy my holiday~ ii realli hope hope sighs ..... so troubled bout some stuff.. why now . sighs . somethings cant type here . somethings not meant for ppl to noe except for some which ii think dey already noe .. why nowadays my mood so affect too . esp .. when it's abt that thing huhhs . lols . i'll try my best to solve and get over with it ? from the beginning ii knew already .. the zutto is not there derhhs xDD
*ps : sighs . for the past few days . it wasnt so good .
7/27/2008 09:16:00 PM my heartful song Y
Saturday, July 26, 2008
shopping~!
bought my glp shoe xDD haha .
update~~~
i now have :
costumes
- strawberry panic
- vampire knight day class
- sugintou
lolita / glp
- spiderweb glp
- black rose waloli
- vampire dress
- blue x white dress
- vampire high school
- red x black lolita
- black waloli
- glp top
- glp skirt
- bunny jacket
- h.naoto jacket
shoes
- crown white
- ribbon black boots
- glp black shoe
bags
- black heart bag with wings
- black lace bag
coming up :
my rabbit jacket
another rabbit jacket
black lolita dress
maid lolita
my kazusu chan costume~~~!!!
omg ii just cant wait ~!
ii spent so much on lolita and cosplay la ~! wheeeeeees . loves sgcafe loads .
thanks mummy for sponsoring =x
*sighs . still thinking abt somethings . trying to sort it out properly ...
i have to before it's realli tooo tooo late...
7/26/2008 09:32:00 PM my heartful song Y
today was sooooooooo fun~~ saw so many ppl xDD tingwen today wahhs . she so shuai lors . lols . my samantha and an qi not there =x LOLS . saw mrs joseph , ms martens , ms lim , ms tan lotsa lotsa SACIANS . den aft concert .. went 85 with jo and kel . den ah bee and janelle came down xD den awhile kel go le .. den half hour later i go .. lols . stupid yuting say wan go end up last min don wan . fish her manx . lols . den daddy fetch mii home . now sitting in front of the comp . anyhow thinking . as in u noe.. very fan . think too much about certain things . bud ii think it is worth . hahaha . sighs . anyways . ii think i'm gonna make alot of new frens =))) hehhs .. from sgcafe. .. mitsuki ask me go with her to the matsuri in lolita leis~! omg la =.= ii don dare . lols . ps de hors lols . xD whees . bored . hmmms . ii wan go far east i wan buy my shoe . i wan i wan i wan go watch movie~!!!!!! sighs ... nobody free . sobs . nvmx .... ii monday going thailand le . sianed leis . think bout school sianed .. thing bt that thing also sianed . argh . fuck kaes . soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucked up now . nvm ii shall go slp . peace peace yahhs . sighs .......................... gonna kp le =))here it goes.
私はそれを感じない。私はどうしてもあなたの愛を感じない。人々が与えることをコメントから見る。そしてどんなcherylがのように言うかもしれないか。 決して彼女を忘れていることを試みなかった。まだあなたの中心で彼女がある。 私に最後彼がいかにのようにあったか。私はこれのための私の全中心に置かない。私は残念である。 私は感じを制御している。それは私の自身のよいのためである。 自分自身が傷つくことを防ぐため。 私は助けることを気にしない。 しかし現実は傷つく。 そんなにそんなに。 今まで、私は混同した精神状態にある。私は次にすればいいのか何を知らない。私はだれを私がもうに回してもいいか知らない。 私はこの関係が堅い行っていることを知っている。私は全力を尽くす。 しかし私は言う。 私は前もって残念である。この関係の私の百%の価値を持ってそれはあるか。実際に私を好むか。 私を愛しなさいか。 あなたのように言ったか。私の友人が実際に言う何を私に疑いをしなさい。 そして私が言ったようにそれは非常に傷つけ、これのように考えることは悲しい。 しかしこれは防ぐことができない。 それはできるか。 それがこれのようである時。私に証明しなさいか。 私に保証を与えなさい。 私がそれを知っている愛は私の物である。 なくならない愛。私は主要な失恋に苦しんでいた。 それに私を助けた。 いろいろな方法で。私がどこにから去ったか私を再度連れ帰ってはいけない。ありがとう。
sighs . like always . i feel so much better even though the unhappiness is still there sighs ~!
7/26/2008 01:10:00 AM my heartful song Y
Friday, July 25, 2008
cheryl just told me abt something .. ii feel so fan . realli very very . until i dunno wad to do . wad she says . makes sense... sighs . how . it hurts u know.. from wad she says . bud i know her advices can listen de . bud bud bud . argh~!!!!!! u noe ..
私はすればいいのか何を知らない。 私は彼女のための実際にちょうど取り替えであるか。 それはiが彼のようであるのでcherylからのこれを聞くためにたくさん傷つく。 私は取り替えであることを憎む。 そして私は人々をまた使用するのを好まない。 そう私は悲しい権利を感じる。 しかし私はするためにである何今、仮定しなさい。 私が彼と正しく壊れると期待できないか。 彼は悲しい。 彼はか。 私は知らない。 しかし私は彼がにほしいと思わない。 私の中心は彼のための苦痛にある。 笑い。
finally . feel so much better . i wan go drink sighs . i nid to study . someone help me ?
7/25/2008 02:25:00 PM my heartful song Y
i just so hate it . stupid me . teach me pls someone . how u console or comfort ppl canx ?! sighs . see my dear so sad yet i dunno wad to say ehs . how how how ?! sighs . dunno how to help him ..
7/25/2008 12:16:00 AM my heartful song Y
Thursday, July 24, 2008
sighs . no doing shugo chara le . stupid . i was so affected by the sgcafe thing la ok . the whole day during work . sighs heart pain . cause sgcafe.. it's a forum which i love .. all the cosplay , gothic lolitas .. something which interest me alot alot . after knowing wad happened . my heart broke . i cried la . weird hors . sry la ii very emotional de . abit abit can cry =)) depends on wad la .. den besides that another thing which ii very fan .. my results . sighs ii failed econs . must study . bud how . i noe i cant . but i wanna try i realli do . the course so ex.. must pass . it's suppose to be a course which i like too . sighs . today was my last day of work ~ gonna miss all of u ~! muacks~ . tmr going for sacss concert xD omg will see all my frens loves loves . miss them all sooooo much luhhs okayys . =DDD den sat night go down vch agn =.= celebrate sarah ang bday xDD den sunday STUDYING STARTS =))) den monday go sch .. aft sch maybe go find my qing ai de . den go home .. get ready go airport . going bangkok till wed xD thurs got sch . ohs . and i'm suppose to attend lessons every wed for my econs =.= roars . fuck la . i hate it manx . jiu ming ahs~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!! omg la . ii realise ii spent alot alot on my cosplay / gothic lolita stuff .. ii think everything add up can almost hit 1k liaos lors . onli if i can learn how to save $$ ii think ii would be happier . my mama would be happier in fact . hmmm . that's bout it for today bahhs .
gal , finally seeing euu tmr lerhhs =))
darling , i'll try my best to help you okayys . cheer up my dear . =)) loves .
PS : somebody~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ watch movie with me ~! T.T onegaishimasu~!!!!
7/24/2008 11:02:00 PM my heartful song Y
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
7/23/2008 11:15:00 PM my heartful song Y
NEW ADDITION~
GONNA JOIN AS RAN~ THE BLUE~~
7/23/2008 11:10:00 PM my heartful song Y
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MINNA~!!!! HELP HELP NEEDED . i plan to cosplay for the anime kamichama karin~!!! either one of this chara .. which which which ?!!!!!!!!!
7/23/2008 12:17:00 AM my heartful song Y
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
why why why. why is it that everytime i ask u smth u can don say . bud when u ask me i have to say . why . it's just so unfair . sometimes i don wan say end up have to say cause don wan u angry . i noe u concern bud now i'm oso wad . bud i cant do anything also . wait ask u den irritate u . den u say forget i wont understand . pls la hors.. u never even tell me a single bit how u wan me go understand . wth .. u wan borrow 200 ii ok de . bud at least tell me reason right . u got things wan tell mi is can de lors.. ii will hear de .. now ii hao hao wait for u talk den all u can say is forget it lors.. wahhs . u noe very qi de anot . den is like i wan cry le lors. sighs . now my turn . forget it la . if u don wan say . u forever wont tell me anything de lors.. that day at ecp . was the onli day u told me so much . i was so happy . cause u finally told me . bud onli when euu drunk . does it mean tat ii have to wait until u everytime drunk ma . ii read ur blog ii teared.. post this oso same .sighs . all ii can do is cry . so useless . u kip saying u hen lei hen lei ask u , u say nth . sighs . wad u wan me to reply leis . u dont even wanna tell mi a single thing . u noe how ii feel anot .. ya u my 11 yr fren . ii feel so shi bai . ii don even noe alot abt u . at least u do abt me . i don even noe what are your likes and dislikes . so who's worst .
gal , u noe ma.. ii was wondering somemore.. whether u can make it on this wed 10.10pm to watch a preview show with me at plaza . ii haven asked u yet . ii oso end work at night . ii can rush down . it's been so long since we have watched movies together . u noe.. sometimes not say ii don bother to think is ii think until ii don even wan to say so it'll be a aiya nvm forget it better... maybe aft the days when we are free we'll be closer agn bahhs . because of work we've drifted . bud ii noe euu have to work =)) ii wont mind .. ii somemore plan le .. when u work ii free ii go deliver food to you somemore...if u say u are useless den what abt me . at least u will be always here when ii nid u . bud i cant . i don even noe how . although ii so much want to comfort u etc bud i'm just too stupid and ii cannot learn my dear no matter how much ii try , ii realli want to . i'm so sorry . ii noe .. ii oways say ask u tell me things bud ii noe my replies can onli make u have the nvm no point . bud ii realli wish u can share with me . i noe this is how many thousnd times ii am saying this already . sighs . i miss u ii realli do . i miss the times realli . when we had so much fun . esp when u at my hse ... we play like mad . just the two of us . it's been sooooo long since it's just us .. realli us .. enjoying . how ii wish ii realli wish ....will it be hard agn ? ii miss the times we realli go shopping , go play , go sing , go take neo .. so many many .. sighs . sometimes ii never say thing is cause don wan hurt u .. aft a period of time ii got say de ma . ii noe u do the same too . aft awhile den u tell me . ii appreciate it too .. there's so much things yes ii can tell euu . everything that has happen in the past yr ... i'm putting it down . i now.. just wanna continue everything ...anyways.. thanks for ur concerns gal.. bud u noe ..ii need ur trust back too . and i'll prove it to u .thanks for being such a great fren my dear ii mean it . although there will be times , we think bad abt each other . bud at least u're my true fren which ii consider . and will always be . yes . road is still long . we'll be friends forever ya ? no matter wad happens .. i'll try my best to maintain it . u noe .. 1 day nv contact euu ii already feel so weird .. gal.. don think so much ya. gone through so much . wad's more ? we can sure pass through it derhhs .
the smth which is in us .. ii think time will reveal ? ii oso dunno myself .. sighs . anyways . gal . thanks and sry for everything agn . meet up real soon ya ? =))
ii miss euu loads my gal .
7/22/2008 01:20:00 AM my heartful song Y
Saturday, July 19, 2008
7/19/2008 11:12:00 PM my heartful song Y
私はあなたとの愛でそう深く落ちるべきではない。 私はあなたの方の私の感じをすべて制御する。 私は信任および信頼レベルがとても低いこと残念である。 しかしそのようにまた考えることにおいて私を責めることができない。 それは私がいかにあり、私をこれのように考えさせるのはであるかである。 すべての人はそれが実際に本当ではないことをのまわりでである忠実もてあそばないが、私が知っていると常に言う。 人がちょうど傾くのでそれをしなさい。 制御。 それは傷つく。 私はまたそんなに考えたいと思わない。 ちょうど希望はすべて正しくなる。 あなた自身にちょうどそれを良く保つものは何でも。 私に言うことを迷惑を掛けてはいけない。 私は知りたいと思わないし、行かなかったりし、調べない。 時々それが私何も知らないiいかに。 素晴らしいそれが知らないこといかにであるか。 私が言ったように。 深い横になる隠された真実。 ベストは全然それを取ることではない。 私は私に自身に屑考えることによって私の貴重傷つく。 私は残念である。
ps: jo you know how to read . by another webbie =)) cheryl ii think u know . bud my english sucked so much so ya . sighs . emo emo emo . fuck la ok . argh .....
7/19/2008 11:12:00 PM my heartful song Y
Monday, July 14, 2008
GAL , I LOVE YOU LA .Pimp My Profileii read ur blog . ii like ur that yellow pic .. gal i'm so touched la okayys . u this stupid womam .. make mii read until ii wan cry liddat roars... if longer ii sure cry sias... pig pig pig .. see u tmr la . xDD . muacks . loves .
7/14/2008 10:28:00 PM my heartful song Y
7/14/2008 04:15:00 PM my heartful song Y
BABY BOY , YOU'RE MISSED .Pimp My ProfileHAHA . today so bored~~ staying at home doing nth leis. lols .
my roster : 16 , 19 , 20 , 23 , 24 got work xDDD 16 , 23 , 24 all afternoon . which is 1.30-9.30 xDD den 19 , 20 ish mid shift ... 11.45-8 hahaha . wendy say put mii moring risky hahaha cause ii cant wake up mahhs xDD lols . whees . so bored ehs ... so lazy go out today esp when it's gonna rain soon.
OHS YA . ii went shopping with nur and journey ytd xDD shopped at far east xDD hohoho . spent ard 200 =x as usual all black stuff again . ii bouoght something grey at least xDD hohoho . my closet gonna bomb with black sias . wtf rights . lols . so bored luhhs okayys . sianed la ...~~~ hahaha . i'm so bored~!!!! how how how ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROARS . nvm ~ wonder wad to wear tmr~
so yupps... xDD hmmms.. so bored leis xD how how how ii wanna watch movie~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ bring mii go out~!!!!! roars...
xDD : it's gonna rain .. and he's at sentosa sun tanning =.=.. wonder wad's gonna happen . hahhs. enjoy yahhs . misses .
7/14/2008 04:00:00 PM my heartful song Y
Saturday, July 12, 2008
hmmms... today is still a ok day for me =)) hmms.. i'm extending my working date till hmms maybe the 23th ? 24th ii got appointment sighs . x ray xDD haha for erm.. smth =)) cant say =x private hohoho.. xDD . den ehs ... next week gonna make bento~! whees... hmmms den den ehs .. ya~! ii tmr going shopping with nur ~! yayys~! whees~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hohoho . den hmmms . ii dunno wad ii wanna say oso . results will be out tmr sighs . these few days . my stupid mense kip making my life so terrible for me lors~!!! faster end better =)) i'll be happy~~~~ hohoho... 4th day lerhhs today xDD haha . hmmms . so bored sias.... with continuing my work~ byebye to my nice slp and going out lerhhs ~~~~~~~~~ omg la . haha . xDDD whees... sighs .. thanks to my mense give me stupid mood swings oso . shld be happy end up emo emo sias . sighs ...........................
ps: i'm missing euu ALOT =DD haha . loves <3s .
7/12/2008 11:53:00 PM my heartful song Y
Friday, July 11, 2008
ii shld be happy shld ii ? of course.. ppl will say tat ii am mad .. bud sighs.. so sad la .. dunno whys so emo .. sighs .wad do ii wanna achieve ? sighs ... ii wanna take out that necklace tat ii am wearing for half a yr.. sighs... u noe .. if ii also have a guardian chara.. ii wan my would be self to be ..
-my true personality
-courage to do things
ii noe still got somemore . bud ii dunno wad ...
wad am ii thinking ii dunno . did ii make the right choice ? ii mean did ii do the correct thing ? sighs .. ii dunno ... sighs.. wanna open my heart realli and see wad's realli deep deep down sighs .. T.T .... u noe mahhs .. ii wan everything from the bottom of my heart to surface. sighs .. everything.... FACE IT . I WANT TO . I WANNA SOLVE EVERYTHING . ii wanna start everyting afresh .. bud ii dunno start from where ... sighs .. jo ii wanna change blog song .. ii borrow urs okayys . sry .. so song copy right by jo ya =))
anyways gal.. thanks for everything . ii noe .. alot have changed.. the pasts when we were young were the best memories.. ii very she bu de ni .. ni dong ma .. realli wish tat will be frens forever realli sighs ... i'm sry . realli sorry that i'm not there for euu this few mths.. maybe this period of time .. cant be there for u like how ii used to.. ii wanna cry le la . sighs . feel so bad . wanna u to know ii wanna realli wanna be there for euu so so so badly . at times when u are down ii hope ii could be by ur side . bud sometimes the timing so wrong . ii cant get out of hse .. ii so sad can . sighs gal ah gal . ii love euu la . ok . sighs . ii type this ii wan cry le lors .. sighs ii dunno whys . T.T kip in touch always .. eternally okayys . no matter wad happenss ... nth nth can break us apart. love euu lots .
7/11/2008 12:04:00 AM my heartful song Y
Saturday, July 5, 2008
i'm confused. sighs. realli dunno wad to do. wad's with the weird feelings in me . ii nid someone to help me.. whys always one aft anotehr .. cant ii have a break ?
7/05/2008 10:12:00 PM my heartful song Y
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