Tuesday, April 15, 2008
hellos~ been feeling much better ~ hehhs . whees . school started . so tired la . sighs .. den go work blah .. needa sit in sales counter xDD cause if need book jetstar or tigerairways mahhs easier lols ~ today answered alot of calls =.= sianed . itineries like have to print more more more liddat lols . today deyy celebrated joycelyn's birthday . whees ii printed the card from online . damn cute la~ lols.. den christine teach mii myy school work .. the connectedness thingy . cause tmr got ca mahhs xD whees.. den liddat lors . tmr finish ca can go off lerhhs xDD hahaha . den ask teacher if tmr can 10 am start xD whees . hmmms he's the ceo leis . den share holder of a chinese restaurent lols . den liddat lors .. den ehs.. time pass v v fast lors.. den yahhs.. hmmms . sighs . been msging dominic these few days lols . dots . den tat jo always anyhow anyhow say derhhs .. =.= sianed .. den liddat lors xDD . hmmms . tiring day . thurs , fri no school~~ bud still got work .. sat .. going out with derek foo li jie .. den liddat lors.. sighs .... must be happy on that day xDD ki siao abit also nvm . haas.. must play play xDD . OH . todayy went down to alice shopp . den mama bought myy bag fer mii . love it loads loads xDD wahhs ii think for cosfest .. if we all go down ii waiting fer myy shoe .. my outfit is vampire type lolita mahhs xDD den myy this new bag omg~ so peiix . den another bag lace derhhs . hehhs . today spent ard 200+ at alice shop xDD whees . ii wanna go buyy somemore~ OMG LUHHS SHE GOT ALOT OF NEW WAWA CANX ?! ほんとうにすきです~!可愛い~~!!!EUU NOE HOW MUCH II LOVE IT MAHHS ? euu noe hors .. ii type the word devil in jap for jeffrey kor to see mahhs . in jap for jeffrey kor to see mahhs . den he go put in his msn lors . ii see lerhhs was like .. sighs .. 悪魔=あくまdirect translation . even if ii type in jap it changed to e mo . cause akuma is e mo mahhs e mo . cause akuma is e mo mahhs . den ish like.. in myy life the onli e mo is .. u noe who la . don nid sayy derhhs .. den liddat lors .
hmmms let's talk abit bout sat .. yi , shi ting , didi , jo , kor , dom stay over myy hse . we at ard 3am in the morning play lolita lors . ii got the pictures in my camera so fun luhhs lols den ah yi crossdressed xD damn nice luhhs xD myy makeup skill for him wahahahahas.
den liddat lors ~ these few days quite boring . bud i'm trying to enjoy every moment of it .
だいすき私アクマ。心、ほんとうに、痛いです。どして。私愛あくま。ほんとうに。ほんとうに。ずっと
ずっと。いつでも。でも、さよなら。いってらっしゃい。だいすき。じゃあに。
4/15/2008 10:54:00 PM my heartful song Y
Saturday, April 12, 2008
sighs. euu noe ahs . ytd we drink hehhs . so stoopid luhhs hors.. drink 1 bottle of e thirthy three and half can of anchor den ii drunk lerhhs . ii ytd think alot alot alot . ii cried alot alot also . sighs . was damn sad .. ii miss derek foo li jie . ii seriously do . sighs .. why must he mia . sighs . he wont contact me derhhs ii noe ... everyday waiting for his call . stupid me sias. lols . rights. sighs . bud nvm =)) it's his choice mahhs he happy canx lerhhs . if he like jo also den so be it lors xDD i'm okayys derhhs . he happy canx lerhhs . sighs . first time ii liddat cause of guyy canx . realli very very tong ku . bud ii wont sayy anything . cause ii do it willingly . den liddat lors .. ii shall wait . no matter how long . ii just wan him to noe that ii ish zhen xin de ai ta . yupps . if realli wanna let go or forget . i'll let the feelings slowly fade.. bud for now. ii wanna wait till the day he come back .
ii noe i'm not the one he realli like derhhs . bud yahhs . ii noe .. will be played agn ? tat's wad ppl say .. just tat ii don care .. hehhs . den liddat lors ... sighs ... i like euu etc easy to say . bud when ii say tat day , tell him .. first time ii tell someone ii realli like him .. miss him alot alot . fuck lors. sighs . u noe mahhs . it's from the bottom of myy hart . so pain so pain canx ... ii noe .. ii will like him for very very long derhhs sure ... sighs .. it's gonna be hard .. bud i'm gonna live life happily . wanna show him... waiting for him is a happy thing . ii don wanna be sad . ii wanna look at the bright side . yupps . den ii wanna change . ii wanna be a better totally changed person =)) ii must jia yous . sighs . ii must !! gambatte ne ~ school's starting . jo , cheryl , we must chiong and study hard okayys . no missing of sch and work anymore =)) yayys ~ thanks kor , kat , jo , didi for ytd .. thanks for being by me , helping me and cheering me .. thanks sister for your support .. =)) byesbyes... last word for the day SIGHS XD .
ps : ii love euu , ii miss euu . i'll be waiting .
4/12/2008 09:51:00 PM my heartful song Y
Monday, April 7, 2008
sighs . i'm sad sad sad sad . fucked up sad . i'm realli sry jo . ii noe . letting my emotions rule me is nt good . i'm sorry . ii noe ii cant love others when ii don love myself . u noe . sighs . i'm realli sry for letting eu down . i'm sorry for disappointing euu . i'm sry for making u give up on me . i'm sry for always hurting . i don wanna it to end up this way bud den it's like sighs . u noe . it sucks realli . sighs . i'm realli realli sorry . disappoint u sooo much . sighs . ii don wanna be like this . wad happened to me . ii just wanna be the same girl .. ting hua de xiao hai . why is it so fucking hard ?! sighs . ii wanna go ... go... sighs .. ii wan everyone to be happy . it'll be the best . sighs . ii just this time .. jo ... give up for real ? ii dunno . ii wanna go shopp for her a present . is she still myy sister ? ii dunno or just my fren onli ? sighs . i dunno . i'm crying crying so much . ii guess ii have to live life without her ? ii wan her to stay . bud ii have no face to do so anymore. ii cause her to suffer so much . it's enough . she's myy good fren .. my best fren . my sister. ii don wanna her suffer cause of me . don wanna hurt her anymore.. maybe she'll be happier like this ii guess .. ii'll be alright ? will ii be ? sighs .. ii dunno . i'm realli sooo sooo sorry .
4/07/2008 02:10:00 PM my heartful song Y
Sunday, April 6, 2008
he gonna mia soon . sold his hp as well sighs . realli gonna miss him fucking loads sias.. he mia 8 mths . ii wait 8 mths . hmmms . this sat will be the last outing with him . hope ii will have fun ? memories~~ sighs
4/06/2008 10:25:00 PM my heartful song Y
离开不会太悲伤有些心情该释放直到眼泪它自己落下才发现骗不了自己其实很爱你现在学着去遗忘躲开有你的地方回忆被谁放在书架上把他从最高的地方落下感动越是深刻寂寞就越伤人喔每个人的心里都会有一段伤痕像白纸的天真仿佛被你伤得好深相爱不需要理由离开也没有理由挽留
4/06/2008 10:21:00 PM my heartful song Y
yohoos
i'm working at focal travel agency located at people's park center ... 02-56
anyone wanna come ... come la ~ say hi to me lols !! wheeeeeeeees . ii do miss sch la . ii miss sac ... sighs .. blah blah ... waiting for sch to start~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ so much thing ii wanna say bout sch bud let's wait for another day okayys ? =)) hehhs . wheess . loves loves everyone .
minna san~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ AISHITERU DESU~~~~~~~~~ hehhs . whees . kaes luhhs . jaa ne..
4/06/2008 10:02:00 PM my heartful song Y
yohoos. i'm finally back hahhs ! got miss mii mahhs ? lols . hmms . ii so bored lors . anyways . ii still like derek foo li jie .. jo say if love someone ... must gan gan ai xia qu .. you wont care if u hurt or wad . so ya . ii will wait lors . if during tat 8 mths ... he realli find someone new den nvm lors .. ii alright derhhs . hart pain nias mahhs . no big deal . wad matters most is tat he happy can lerhhs . sighs . realli very very she bu derhhs canx ?! .. hmmms . this few days talk to him ... so happy lors . it's like it's been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long since talk to him until liddat lerhhs . hahhs . yuan lai ii all along lying to myself . ii kip saying tat ii forget him lerhhs . it's just tat ii don wan face it ? hmmmm . he's the first guy which ii like sooo long and very very hard to forget lors . sighs . dunno whys leis . sighs .. realli dunno how long will ii like him lors . jo say can tell tat he is the guy ii loved the most lors . sighs .. ppl say ii stupid wait for he this type of person . ii anything derhhs . cause ii like him . wad can ii do hors .. hmmms . onli can think think think and miss lors ... hurt .. 4 letters nias . no big deal rights. not as if ppl die .. sighs . den liddat lors ... wahhs .. 8 mths really long . sighs . u noe mahhs . when he ask mii for patch ... ii say feel weird because ii dunno ... it's so sudden .. he say wan patch with me again ... hesitate.. ii is okayys with it derhhs . den he tell me bud ii will lonely for the 8 mths . bud he wont understand ? lols . it's alrighs derhhs . hmmms . bud ii think he shld not ? cause ii noe .. in this 8 mths .. he will like other ppl derhhs mahhs . alot ppl warn me le .. ii just kept thinking about it . think and think and think sighs .. den liddat lors .. sighs .. den it's like ..erms.. u noe.. sighs ... ii dunno how to say leis . jiu ming ahs ........... whole day xiang xiang xiang . wtf la okayys . esp .. when ii emo-ing myself about other stuff . den jo msg mii . say gal why so emo.. derek say wan jio u back . fuck la . at that moment hors.. heart pain sias!!! kokoro hontou ni itai !!!! ping pong piang . . sighs . wan cry canx . dunno whys . tat night go ktv go drink .. miss him so much cried 2-3 times leis . cause ii noe ii drink too much and super emo .. cause tat day ii drink so much ii also nth wrong .. so this time must be realli sad .. face sooo red... head so pain . walk also not str8 ... think so many things . sighs ... everyday ii think shall just work and study bahhs . bud he'll be in my hart and mind derhhs xDD hehhs . weird mahhs ? can onli blame myself for being liddat hors. who ask mii.. like someone can like soooooo fucking long . sighs ... tot can like someone else bud end up cant also ... hmmms.. liddat lors . ii think this post all about him .. ii rarely blog nowadays unless i'm realli sad u noe . sighs .. just hope everything will turn out well .. ii wish him happiness and study hard .. hope tat he'll get everything done well and right for himself lors . sighs . u noe .. ii got think of ... nvm .. ah xiang kor will kill me sias . sighs . nvm ii ren ii ren okayys . as long as jo and xiang still tgt ii can onli ren ... hmms. wish jo happy too . although ii noe wad is realli in her mind thinking sighs .. ppl kip misunderstand her too . sad la . yishun realli too many memories lerhhs lors .. sighs .
to derek foo li jie : wo hui deng ni .. no matter how hurt ii will be . ii wont care . ii wanna gan gan ai xia qu . even if u wont come back lerhhs . you've found happiness . let mii see , let mii noe . do not be afraid . i'll slowly realli let go . although in my hart it'll be hard . bud wei le ni . wo ke yi .. ii guess . ii love euu . goodbye. takkaiirreess loads okayys . you'll be in my prayers . missing you lots. devil pig ii miss euu so. do come back soon .
4/06/2008 09:43:00 PM my heartful song Y