sighs . snow can sense my mood swings eh . major changes . nowadays my mood swing becoming worst sias . i wanna rant abt smth . sighs . i'm feel weird posting . cause i noe alot ppl will see =.= bud roars . don care le . this is wad happens when someone like me becomes emo / mood swings . wall of text . sry .
whys whys whys . am i realli a cant do it person ? i noe , based on my habits etc , people impression of me is fixed . lazy , always late , always play no serious ? hey i can de ok . it's tat it depends de lors . so don have it fixed hao mahhs . u all don give me chance de . sighs . it's like , wei le go sch tat day , i rushed ok . i noe i got test i reached sch in like 45 min aft i woke up ?! broke record ok . i din even dry my hair properly . i noe when is the time to be serious ok . it's like u all the thinking is just like my mama etc i hate it la ok . no matter how much i changed u all wont notice . u noe whys ?! cause it's fixed le . i'm a blah blah person . no matter how i changed no one notices . i tried so much . joanna noes . it's very sad derhhs lors . sighs . i let u all joke make fun etc . i don mind . bud don everytime . although i noe it will become a used to it de . bud if i say i don like it pls stop . sighs . who will ever notice . give me the chance ? ok . i had alot of chances . bud nobody wanna see . wanna notice so .. that stupid impression still stays . i noe . all my friends are liddat fixed fixed ok . bud like i say i noe when is the right time etc , pls don judge me liddat . i don like to study i noe it myself . i can study if i wan . seriously . it all depends on myself ok . tat was wad happened , that's whys i quitted sec 5 . it's just so much . too many things happened during the past few months to now . impact big big kaes . honestly i dunno wad i wan in life now la . mother say , i now don wan study always enjoy . and i always repeat i now cant study next time suffer den enjoy now la since i noe next time cant . sighs . stupid thinking ya . but if that is me it's me . i hate it i realli do i hate myself . sometimes i so feel like doing smth , end up leis . don dare say etc . end up leis . too late . den it's like i realli realli wished . sometimes i ii no confidence thus not daring to voice out . sighs . T.T i hate it la bud tat's me agn . sighs . fail rights . ahhh . i wan cry le la . i wanna sing sing sing . tat's the onli thing which can make me stop thinking . it sucks ok ~!!!! nothing can describe how i actually feel la . i think this wall of text also cant lors . sighs . maybe i realli shld had gone to imh ya . i have a feeling i am going to be crazy agn . serious . ppl think i insane AA or wadever i don care ok . i don care . serious . insane ah , i go in come out den call me tat oso can . the onli thing tat kips me happy is my frens and sgcafe . my love for subcultures ok . bud i noe , it cant go far . ppl say i crazy cause i like subculture till liddat . cant blame me for liking japanese stuff rights . sighs . u noe , i have no idea wad i'm saying i just feel so... fucked up right now . argh~! sianed . my pathetic life . shit la . ok . ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
idiots idiots . it's like . ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dunno how to say . don see my usually so happy kaes . like joanna noes . my heart hors , i is kip everything down down down , don let it out . bud i noe one day sure cannot tahan . at least it's better . i wont wrong emotions at wrong time . so ya . sighs . how leis . nvm . hope my mood swing will be better .
it's like ice cream suppose to make me happy bud dunno whys just now i felt irritated . sighs T.T wad's wrong with me *bangs wall* T.T . nvm suan le . say so much also no use . i feel like not slping today though . let's see wat time i can stay awake till den . T.T sighs .
11/20/2008 02:41:00 AM my heartful song Y
