i miss euu . i realli do . sighs . u nv reply me , don call me etc.. i'm alright with it i guess . ii miss the times .. we were so "close" hahhs .bud now u seem like ur're drifting away . pls dont let me have wild thoughts . i noe u said u needed time . i don mind . are u giving me the chance ? i kip asking u out . yet either u cant or no reply at all . sighs . jo said smth i agree . why cant we go out like how other couples do ? sighs . darling , it hurts so much u noe . i'm just kiping it silent . i don wanna fan u . i noe u have ur own problems . i'm glad that u called me ytd . our one mth . sighs . was so happy . can hear ur voice can finally talk to u . even if it is just awhile . u noe... i longed to see u . it's been a week plus . sighs . darling , u got any problems etc , share with me will u ? like how u did in the past ? my zhu ren... don throw ur piggy aside . ppl ask me how's me and my bf .. ii say ok... got meet ? never .. why ? ii just kept silent . i don noe how to answer . this few days ... been trying hard to contact euu , been trying hard to ask u out ... yet .. no reply ? want to talk to u , u not free ii guess ? dunno wad u've been doing these few days... sighs... u used to message me so often ...even before we stead . sighs . is this wad they call aft stead "effect" ? ii dunno . bud ii choose to trust euu . euu said u wont play me rights . don break my trust will u ? sighs . ii realli hope .. realli realli hope .. don drift so much away from me will u ? anything , i'll listen to u .. help u as much as i can .. like last time.. i'm happy being able to help u .. ii wanted to not msg u just 1 day .. bud end up i cant . i'm missing u like fuck loads . sighs . so i just sent that msg. i noe u wont reply bud at least i noe u read it . ppl ask me let go . i don wanna . fuck i hate that word ok . sighs . bud like i say ..if it's not meant to be .. it'll nv be .. sighs . sad u noe .. been cheering myself up .... dunno how to tell jo and cheryl stuff cause ii noe wad dey will say and i don wanna hear cause i'm just running away...sighs .
jo thanks for acc my ytd .. even though it's awhille . sighs . u noe . i wasnt feeling okayys . thanks for being there . sighs .it hurts whatever u said when i msged u just now . it feels like something pierced through u noe . sighs . all the way .. through dinner ii thought abt it . so fan . so heart pain . sighs .
anyways , i'm right . blog is the best palce to kp . sighs . nobody will noe.. not say nobody . bud i kp .. who will care . sighs . i go le ... byebye.. sighs .
MAKE MY NEXT HALF OF THE YEAR PLEASENT WILL YOU ? I DON WANNA HAVE A WHOLE YEAR OF SADNESS .. LAST HALF OF THE YEAR WAS A TORTURE TO GO THROUGH .I DON WANNA IT TO REPEAT . PLS GRANT ME THIS WISH . THANK YOU .
8/11/2008 08:22:00 PM my heartful song Y
