WHY WHY WHY WHY AM I SO ANGRY OVER SUCH A FUCKING SMALL THING . OMG .. II HAVE TO LET IT ALLLLLLL OUT MANX. FUCK KAES .
sighs..i've been wanting to say this for a very long thing.. bud ii just cant.. cause euu my fren.. close one somemore.. sighs... wad ii wan say is that .. euu two the thing ii very very tired .. although ii enjoy knowing stuffs abt him .. funny etc.. bud at times.. sighs.. the feeling is just weird...
just now wad all ii can think of is " go la go la complain to him complain all you wan to him . den aft that he come say me nias lors.. ii don wan care le ... "
bud den .. thinking back .. sighs... ii guess... nvm bahhs.. cant be so xiao qi .. bud dunno whys .. "qi" until wan cry liaos lors.. serious .
at times there are so much ii wanna say .. so many things I CANNOT SAY . sighs . cant say to anyone...painful u noe... very ... tong ku .. xin ku.. sighs... it's like .. omg ... save me okayys ~! sighs... T.T everyone and everywhere is dangerous . there's no safe place where ii can say... maybe there is bud ii dunno where?
sighs .. i'm so confused.. my life become so kns .. whys.. sighs.. ii wan cry cry cry ... temptations to do .... aiya .. nvm la.. if it's meant to be liddat .. nth ii can do to change it . sighs..
where are euu my special someone.. how come ii cant find euu anymore . ii really need you...
you're the onli one ii can tell my stuff to . sighs . serious.. just thinking abt so many things... wan to noe the truth oso dunno how to ask / say ... sighs .. i'm realli a failure...
maybe while i'm working... sighs... T.T ii shall put my phone aside.. wont carry it with me anymore.. mia during work.. sighs... ii very very tired realli hen lei...
anyways..euu said euu will leave them .. esp aft tat meal... bud ii guess nth will change much ... it will stay the same..and .. realli .. ii realise ...some things... ii realli shld not put too much hope in it.. was so looking forward to the day when euu said you'll leave .. ii waited for that day so long.. so tat ii myself can put everything behind.. the past which will become memories.... bud ii guess it will never happen in this situation... since euu still cant do it.. sighs .. nvm .. it so hurts... crying to myself... wanting to get out fast.. sighs.. no one notices... no one will care .. serious .. no one... i swear..
if one day i'm gone... ii guess .. noone will ever notice... maybe n awhile... aft tat they might have forgotten me.. just like how mr quah has been forgotten.. but ii still rmb ... sighs... someone.. help me.. help me get out .. ii don wanna stay trapped ..
ytd was the starting ... i'm sorry for leaving euu alone to meet derek... first time.. bud ya . u enjoy have fun with him etc okayys . euu said to ask me message euu .. end up leis... euu never reply my messages oso .. sighs.. whys... ii dunno la.. ii realli shld not bother euu next time.. go bahhs . go enjoy with him okayys . don say ii jealous or wad.. i'm not.. just tat .. sighs .. euu wont understand how ii feel... it's just mixtures.. and then... so many stuff is going through my mind now.. sighs.. whys ..
exam later ii haven even study . sad sad sad.. management sighs... how .. hope my last min studying will help T.T ..
6/18/2008 12:41:00 AM my heartful song Y
