there's so much to say .
it hurts .
i'm reminded of
euu everyday my sweetheart .
ur're just my imagination , my special someone . that's the hurtful truth .
yet , it is always
unknowingly been exposed . ii hear
ur name everywhere .
everytime , it hurts . every thing about
euu which comes in mind , feels like icicles piercing through my heart . so fast so painful .
it's suppose to be a joy in loving
euu .
bud suddenly things starts to change mysteriously .
ii wan to find out the real real truth behind everything esp this change .
ii
noe it's gonna be hard . bud
i'll just try and
persevere . for
euu , anything is possible .
ii have no idea . if one day , just to be with
euu , ii have to give up my life , ii wont mind =))
it took me so long . so so long . ii don really expect anything in return , don expect that
euu will
noe . =))
euu live in my heart even if
euu are gone . ii love
euu more and more as the days goes by . ii dunno why too bud ii feel happy just knowing it .
it's
torturous to live on like this . bud ii don mind . ii miss euu so so so much .
my sweetheart . i love euu . our forbbiden love . the unknowing truth . the hidden secret .
will be revealed . bud when will it be ? hmmms . ii'll have to wait for euu my dear . =))
ii don wan euu to go away . once ur're gone i'll be so lonely . no one here for me . making me smile just knowing that ii love euu . sighs . 誰かがあなた好きです？ii think ii know.
i'm just lying to myself . ii wanted to ask euu . yet . ii cant open my mouth .
now , i'm trying to avoid it . it's yet another thing being dug and placed deep down in my heart with the hidden truth of me . deep deep down . ii don wanna take it out . ii noe ii will break down . i'm afraid ii am ii really do . ii dunno wad to do . sighs . it hurts . so so much . so pain . it makes me breathless . these few days , ii just cant slp well . ytd , ii onli ate 1 meal which is when ii go my daddy performance . everything has been going so badly for me . whys . bud nvm . 1 meal a day isnt tat bad . ii don wanna care for myself already . ii noe ppl are tired of caring for me . me myself too am tired . maybe ii shld just try . don care . ya ? =)) loves loads . hehhs . ii shall try xD
in my world .. it was black and white . den euu added colours into it .. bud now .. it's starting to change back .. bud no longer with white .. just black . pure black... no one and nothing will light it up anymore ... sighs ... ii miss euu . everyday it's growing stronger .
6/07/2008 10:52:00 PM my heartful song Y
