*ii want to thank euu for all the love , happiness , the pain and the tears euu brought into my life.
ii always told euu that euu came for a reason into my life.
and yes, it is true, euu have taught me how to love unconditionally no matter how painful it was.
the love we shared will always be remembered,will alwys bring that smile in my heart with no regrets.
times spent with euu will always be remembered with tears and joy as it was the joyous and tearful part of my life.
ii never really lost euu , did ii ? iihave more than sweet memories because i had euu once.
ii noe euu loved me well enough for the moment.
euu hurt me ; ii can still feel the pain of everything euu did . from taken me for granted till dumped me.
you killed me that very instant with the hurtful things and ii am still dying inside whenever ii recall that moment, those words.
ii used to ask myself how could this guy who had once written sweet affectionate messages on my phone can now hurt me badly with his words.
ii loved euu so deeply that ii become deaf and numb with ur effort to push mii away.
ii being always in control always able to hold onto myself and for a moment ii lost all the esteem , my ability to think so ii realise what ii had for euu is real love.
i'm sorry that ii do not noe how to express out how ii felt towards euu.
how much ii really loved euu.
how much euu realli mean alot to me.
how much ii care for euu.i'm just such a fool.
bud ii guess ii have so much love for euu to ever hate euu.euu made me stronger when euu hurt me.
it hurts alot bud ii guess it's worth isnt it ?
it is silly bud the tears euu brought me cleanse my heart will all the past hurts.
ii probable still might not be over them and don not noe when, but it made me a better person.
ii still cry when ii remember euu, still have sleepless nights , still wake up early in the morning times euu call me to say ii miss euu or euu love me.. ii still think of euu.
it's tiring.missing someone so badly when the person doesnt noe and doesnt feel for euu.
thanks for bringing out the best in me. for all the joy , for giving me the best thing that happened n my life that was euu !
ii only need to be wiser.
ii noe it's not the end for me it might be a good start to begin my life again . ii shouldnt be ever afraid to love again although it may take quite sometime.
to forget euu and onli keep the memories.it's so hard.
euu have gone through before wad ii am going through now.dont say euu dont noe.cause the fact is euu noe.
ii thank god euu came into my life.bud if it is going no where.den it's time.to say goodbye.*
5/31/2008 01:42:00 AM my heartful song Y
