ii miss euu .
wad else can ii say.
nth much.
wad can ii do.
nth much either.
still searching my heart to find the dearest truth.
bud why am ii having the feeling that ii do not want to noe the truth.
yet ii wan and allow myself to be hidden from it.
to escape from it.
don wanna think about it.
bud one day ii still will have to face the real hurting truth which is hidden deep down in my heart.
it's down down down so deep down that ii feel so tired.
just thinking abt how deep down ii must go.
makes me wanna give up knowing the truth.
wad do ii wan from knowing it.
wad am ii always thinking abt.
all the answers will reveal.
when the time is ripe.
but when ii ask myself.
ii myself dont noe.
it's sad not to noe myself.
bud like ii said.
wad can ii do.
ii cant do anything bud to just wait and live life as it is now.
joy,sorrows,angers haas.
wad a life huhhs.
dunno luhhs.
just for now.
ii realli cant do anything.
seriously, i'm courting death =))
i'm too lazy to explain why i'm saying these.
joanna noes whys.
my curiosity.
will lead me to my death one day.
ok.maybe two years later.
if all these continues.
sighs.dunno wad ii wan in life manx.
help me somebody ?
no one.nvm.i'm on my own.
don wanna rely on anyone.
ii have to learn it all by myself.
sighs.when will tat day come.
ii feel so tired.deep down.
who can clear the emptiness in my heart.
who can help me have the patience to wait till that day.
ii dunno.
anyways.i'll just see how it goes.
studying and working everyday making myself not to think of anything.
bud it's beginning to have no effect on me.
whys.is there really no hope.
is it meant to be like this for me.
sighs.ii dun noe.
how ii wish what i'm feeling right now is not what ii think it is suppose to be.
anyways.ii wanna stop le.
save for another day.
besides.everyday will be almost same for me.
to a special someone : you're missed by me =))
5/30/2008 01:20:00 AM my heartful song Y
