changed song : liao jie by sun yan zi
mood : sucky tired aft work
place : home
timing :1.15am
date :31 may 2008
listing to : wo bu pei
sighs.everything's like not right these few days.so tiring.realli realli.
dunno whys whys will ii have this feeling ?
why am ii feeling like tat.
ii dont wan it to happen.
don wan it to come true.
sighs.
so sad.
ii don wan this feeling to come back.
it sucks. it realli do.
sighs.who can help me?
this heartache of mine.
sighs.have yet to be healed.
smiles on my face.
it's the only thing ii can do for myself everyday.
trying to enjoy life to the fullest.
trying to be happy when ii noe deep down it hurts.
sighs.so fast. it's gonna be june already.
somethings , better to be left unsaid.
sometimes say out too much not good also.
so yahhs.best is to keep it to myself.
ii hate myself leis.
how ahs.sighs.
whys am ii like tat.why am ii such a person.
why am ii such a fucked up person.
sighs.always say wan change etc.
bud den.end up leis.also never.
so kns la.realli hate it manx.
there's so much things ii wish to change learn and do.
bud why why why ii always cant.
who can tell me.when can ii learn.when can ii start to change?!
it's like the end of the month le leis.
when can ii ever have real real fun agn.
as in realli enjoy myself.
sighs.ii wan go mia oso.so free.
ii wan lose my memory.
ii wan be a new person.
ii wanna start afresh.
maybe i'll start praying.that i'll lose my memory soon.
my memory is failing.seriously.ii dunno wad's happening.
bud my memory is seriously failing.
so ii shall pray more everyday.
sighs.just leave me alone?
ii admit ii love the company of my dearest friends.
bud ii just have too much regrets in life.
sighs.although ii noe.
there's other ppl who's life worst den me.
bud i'm just saying wad ii wanna say.
so yahhs.
hope ii wont live long bahhs.
end it all quickly manx.
go counselling no use derhhs.
ii wont even say out my secrets.
even my deepest darkest secrets.
so many things.wanna say out.feel like saying.
dunno who to tell.cause somethings cant just say out liddat.
must think of consequences derhhs.
just thinking of it.bring tears to my eyes. sighs. ii noe this is gonna be another long post.
sighs. it's like.sighs ii dunno how to say luhhs.ii miss everyone.
sighs.u noe.ii thinking jo say dunno if she will kanna not.
ii rather be the one to kanna ii think ii will be happier =))
ii noe i'm mad.ii'm like so fucked up stress.thinking so much.
sighs.heart so pain.euu noe mahhs.miss someone so hurtful.don wanna miss don wanna think.
wanna cry nias.sighs.so much more ii wanna say bud bud ii cant.
to special someone:ur're being missed by me agn.=)) everyday in fact.
every hour , min , sec xD haas. seems impossible rights.
bud somehow.you're in my thoughts recently =))
wishes:
-my doll ( strong obession.can go crazy.)
-simple life
-memory loss
-to be a changed person
-to make ppl happy
-lots more..
5/31/2008 01:08:00 AM my heartful song Y
