yohoos. i'm finally back hahhs ! got miss mii mahhs ? lols . hmms . ii so bored lors . anyways . ii still like derek foo li jie .. jo say if love someone ... must gan gan ai xia qu .. you wont care if u hurt or wad . so ya . ii will wait lors . if during tat 8 mths ... he realli find someone new den nvm lors .. ii alright derhhs . hart pain nias mahhs . no big deal . wad matters most is tat he happy can lerhhs . sighs . realli very very she bu derhhs canx ?! .. hmmms . this few days talk to him ... so happy lors . it's like it's been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long since talk to him until liddat lerhhs . hahhs . yuan lai ii all along lying to myself . ii kip saying tat ii forget him lerhhs . it's just tat ii don wan face it ? hmmmm . he's the first guy which ii like sooo long and very very hard to forget lors . sighs . dunno whys leis . sighs .. realli dunno how long will ii like him lors . jo say can tell tat he is the guy ii loved the most lors . sighs .. ppl say ii stupid wait for he this type of person . ii anything derhhs . cause ii like him . wad can ii do hors .. hmmms . onli can think think think and miss lors ... hurt .. 4 letters nias . no big deal rights. not as if ppl die .. sighs . den liddat lors ... wahhs .. 8 mths really long . sighs . u noe mahhs . when he ask mii for patch ... ii say feel weird because ii dunno ... it's so sudden .. he say wan patch with me again ... hesitate.. ii is okayys with it derhhs . den he tell me bud ii will lonely for the 8 mths . bud he wont understand ? lols . it's alrighs derhhs . hmmms . bud ii think he shld not ? cause ii noe .. in this 8 mths .. he will like other ppl derhhs mahhs . alot ppl warn me le .. ii just kept thinking about it . think and think and think sighs .. den liddat lors .. sighs .. den it's like ..erms.. u noe.. sighs ... ii dunno how to say leis . jiu ming ahs ........... whole day xiang xiang xiang . wtf la okayys . esp .. when ii emo-ing myself about other stuff . den jo msg mii . say gal why so emo.. derek say wan jio u back . fuck la . at that moment hors.. heart pain sias!!! kokoro hontou ni itai !!!! ping pong piang . . sighs . wan cry canx . dunno whys . tat night go ktv go drink .. miss him so much cried 2-3 times leis . cause ii noe ii drink too much and super emo .. cause tat day ii drink so much ii also nth wrong .. so this time must be realli sad .. face sooo red... head so pain . walk also not str8 ... think so many things . sighs ... everyday ii think shall just work and study bahhs . bud he'll be in my hart and mind derhhs xDD hehhs . weird mahhs ? can onli blame myself for being liddat hors. who ask mii.. like someone can like soooooo fucking long . sighs ... tot can like someone else bud end up cant also ... hmmms.. liddat lors . ii think this post all about him .. ii rarely blog nowadays unless i'm realli sad u noe . sighs .. just hope everything will turn out well .. ii wish him happiness and study hard .. hope tat he'll get everything done well and right for himself lors . sighs . u noe .. ii got think of ... nvm .. ah xiang kor will kill me sias . sighs . nvm ii ren ii ren okayys . as long as jo and xiang still tgt ii can onli ren ... hmms. wish jo happy too . although ii noe wad is realli in her mind thinking sighs .. ppl kip misunderstand her too . sad la . yishun realli too many memories lerhhs lors .. sighs .
to derek foo li jie : wo hui deng ni .. no matter how hurt ii will be . ii wont care . ii wanna gan gan ai xia qu . even if u wont come back lerhhs . you've found happiness . let mii see , let mii noe . do not be afraid . i'll slowly realli let go . although in my hart it'll be hard . bud wei le ni . wo ke yi .. ii guess . ii love euu . goodbye. takkaiirreess loads okayys . you'll be in my prayers . missing you lots. devil pig ii miss euu so. do come back soon .
4/06/2008 09:43:00 PM my heartful song Y
