sighs.. ii dunno wad ii wanna do now . sighs .. forget .. ii can derhhs . bud ii ..... argh . it's just the damn fucking she bu derhhs la . okayys .sighs . ii dunno wad to do la . sighs . haiiss ... ii miss him . ii wanna leave yishun too many tong ku . sighs . although cannot be compared to jo . sighs .. u noe , too many memories .. it's like . sighs . tiring and ii dunno la . u noe , it's like sighs .. dunno wad he wan me to do lors . treat mii until liddat . sighs . very wad canx . sighs . ii feeel so .... sighs ... nvm la . okayys . sighs .. why must ii like him so much la . fuck can . sighs . ii feel soooooo stupid ... so played la . by wad everyone say ... bud den .. sighs ... ii dunno la . all ii wan is to talk to him , msg him everything as per normal . sighs ... if things have to turn out liddat ii rather not go with him in the first place la . why must ii so fucking care about him ?! ii don wanna care aboout anything lors . sighs . bud den bud den .. sighs ... ii cant ... ii after all treat him as my kor mahhs . ii wanna care canx . you noe , he don even give me the chance . be normal frens la . cannot mehhs . don care about the past ? he treat mii even fucking cold canx ?! wahhs !!! fuck fuck fuck lors .. wo shi hen hen hen sad lors ! sighs . he wan go mia ... nv even tell me hao hao all that is like sighs ... dunno la . tat's wad makes mii wanna get out of their lives okayys . without wo it's also okayys derhhs lors .. who noes, if ii realli were to nv contact them .. sighs .. ii dunno ii realli dunno okayys ii feel so . . . sighs . . ii soo treat him so good la ... sighs . as in . sighs .. ii very very sad lors.. even if realli give him pian .. ii also liddat ... dunno la . who ask mii like him .. fuck fuck .. bud i'll never regret bahhs ... loving him once is enough .. no more .. serious .. ii dunno ii wanna drift bud ii fucking she bu de !!!!!!!!! argh how can ii get rid of th she bu de ness !!!!!!! now he wanna mia.. ii wish him all the best .. sighs ii think i'll be like jo ... fang bu liao ta.. comfirm derhhs . sighs .. bud nvm la who cares sias . anyways .. he must realli take care . real loads . i'll pray for him . even he don nid from mi . sighs .. ii dunno wad to do ... fucking emo .. wo bu shi ta ai de ren . so ya . sighs . everyone has it's own problem . so ya . so does derek ... ii realli wish him all the best =)) find a good someone to be with him . yupps ii dunno le . ii realli wish him all the best . aishiteru . demo , kokoro hontou ni itai .
sighs .. jaa ne onii san .. if euu treat mii as one . sighs ..
youo'll never be forgotten by me .. sighs . smiles laods okayys =)) rmb ur smile is cute =)) smile more . it breaks myu heart when ii hear that u are down .. bud it's suppose to be none of my concern .. when u come back euu will see mii changed surprisingly.. ii wanna give up ... ii wanna force myself . don care the outcome . ok la tat's the end of me being in his life bahhs ..
hmms .. ii quitted school .. gotta learn and study hard more .. in hospitality and tourisn .. ii wanna make it .. my japan trip i'm still looking forward to it . ii wanna study real hard .. ii also dunno wad to do canx ... jiu ming !!!!!!!!!!! ok la... ii shall stop feeling so emo le..
3/04/2008 04:25:00 AM my heartful song Y
