omfg.. sighs .. ii not cause of dagege wanna break contact with jo okayys . sighs .. pot noes how ii feel sighs .. u noe ..i t's like sighs .. ii cant find the right person to say .. ii so much wanna be frens with them agn . but sighs .. ii just don wanna rmb the hurtful parts ok . me and dage now is just onisan and imoto . ok . so don think so much la hors.. ii also nv say because of that . wtf . sighs . u noe .. it's like jo ..although ii realli realli everytime wanna noe wad's happening between the two of u bud sighs .. if ur're sad about him u can tell mii. bud wait till ii really forget everything can ? i'm sry bud it hurts la . although ii can control i can don care .. bud it just hurts there ..ii like a bud ii find b to make a happy . den ii forgot about c and d who cares and liked b . den is like i regret . den b come tell mii she don wanna care bout anything except for a . i can understand at that point of time . bud at that time . i'm still helping as much as ii can for b and kokoro hontou ni itai okayys . sighs . ii din say anything . ii wish ii can continue to contact a and b bud too much have happened .. my heart cant take it la . sighs although ii wanna pretend nth has ever happened bud why do ii feel tat it's like history repeating over agn . nvm la . nobody will understand . sighs . nobody cares . ii don have the mood to think or do anything . sighs .. been listening to the song . making me emo sias . fuck . when ur gone . nvm nvm nvm . ii wanna go ktv.. bud it brings back memories.. ii going to drink sighs ... sooo gonna bud ii cant get drunk ii cant be . sighs . why . how ii wish ii can be .. no worries blah .. when ii cut ii bleed alot ... ii felt happy . i'm going insane . sighs .. i dunno wad's with me ok . drifting away from everyone . sighs .. maybe when jo and ii nv contact le if ii hear she's still happy it's good i'll be happy for her .. ii don care about wad will happen to me ok. ii hate my fucked up life anyways. how ii wish really ii can fly go japan study . bud i'll miss everyone here sighs .... maybe ii shld ? in a few yrs time ..i've plan .
message to jo : i'm sry about everything . i'm sorry for messing up . i'm sry that it had to end this way . sry for not telling u the reason . i'm sorry for always giving u so much problems . i'm really sorry and goodbye . takkaiirreess loads . i'll miss u . take care of dage for me ok . thanks loads. ur're a nice fren tat ii have known for this ten yrs =))
fuck la . sighs .. ii cant stand it .. my heaert pain until ii cannot tahan .. ii noe it sounds fake bud nobody can expect how much pain and how much it has to keep . ii don feel like saying and ii cant say out anything . sighs just leave me alone .
11/24/2007 11:16:00 PM my heartful song Y
